it wasn’t my plan to start up this then not write to it for days to weeks to months. it’s been a long time since the last post. and it’s been two months since i set myself my first public To Do list and gave myself a month to work on it. i actually managed one-and-a-half out of three of the things.
the first thing, to make something, i started. i’m making a pendant for my mother-in-law out of silver PMC clay and embedding a black diamond my other half bought into it. except, i haven’t had the time to finish the piece. and i think i’ve made it too thick to be fired using my torch, so i’ve spent a month trying to decide whether i’m going to give firing it with the torch a go, or if i’m to send it off to have it done professionally in a kiln. and if i send it off, i need to decide whether i send it with the diamond inside it, or do i remove the diamond so it can be fired and then reset it when it comes back. because if i send it off then i’d quite like it to be tumbled too, so it looks all smooth and shiny. so that’s all being held up by my indecision. which is a pain in the bum.
the second thing i wanted to do was to get a grip on my finances again, and see whether i could rearrange some of the credit card debts we have. i still haven’t touched this. it’s still on the list of Things To Do.
the third thing was to spend a lot more time with my son. i’ve done this. i’ve definitely been more inclined to let things pass and let the housework slip so that when he asks if i’ll read him a book or sit and colour with him, i actually do instead of telling him i will ‘later’ or ‘in a minute’ or that ‘i’m busy’. hearing your child tell someone that mummy is always busy is heartbreaking. i hope he doesn’t think that way anymore.
i need to make another list.
but not today.